6 Thoughts from the former “Big Girl.” Well its safe to say that if you have ever been really fat, losing weight is your only want in life. Like there’s nothing else on your mind except getting skinnty. For years I never thought I’d be anything but the pretty big girl. “OMG who cares if your fat your face is beautiful!” Ummm who cares if I’m fat? All the cute guys, the kids staring at me, my parents who didn’t want to take me places, they cared. So like I finally buckled down and got skinny. Size 20 to 10 and it feels pretty legit. On top of that my face is exceptionally beautiful and my body slimmed down to that of a Beyonce shape (small waist, big butt) except my boobs, nothing a (boob) job after college graduation won’t fix. But what did being the “Big girl” teach me?
1) Shallow people are evil. Even after losing 120 lbs I’m not a shallow bitch. For what? I guess being bigger humbled me. I had to have an exceptional personality my whole life to outshine my skinny ass pretty friends so I in no way ever felt better then anyone after I became a swan.
2) That guy you wanted, will be irrelevant once he wants you. All I wanted was for this certain guy to want me. He was just my friend but I know he felt something more for me. He couldn’t act on it because he couldn’t date the “big girl” so he never got to experience my awesomeness. Well, well, well.. once I got my ass right an tight he came around and guess what? I didn’t even want him anymore. Why? because hey douche I was the same person even at 290lbs. Geez.
3) You will see who really loved you for you. My friends during my weight-loss process we’re so supportive. They let me alone to do what I had to do and were so proud of my accomplishments after. It showed me who truly cared about me going MIA for 6 months and getting my 1st 100lbs off. A few friends even worked out with me. They loved me big or small. Went out to the club with me skinny or huge. I love them way more then they will ever know.
4) Give yourself credit. I wasn’t one of those people who documented my weight-loss, I would just post a pic here and there and people would say ohhhh your looking good! Once I did my big reveal people were so amazed I couldn’t stop, I needed to keep going because I didn’t want to disappoint the people looking up to me or proud of me. I was running one day and stopped. Sweat dripping down my face and just cried. I had just finished 2 miles straight something I would have never been able to do a year ago and just told myself, good job girl. You are the shit.
5) You don’t have to stay with the guy who loved you pre-weight loss. Sorry dude, just because you wanted to bone me consistently when I was big doesn’t mean I have to stay with you. “Who was there for you before you were 169lbs? noone wanted you.” Yeaaaaa, but they do now and your an ass. Goodbye
6) Remember how it felt when you were the big girl. Sometimes I completely forget how it felt to be that big. I get looked at for being beautiful now not for being fat. When I feel myself becoming unhumbled if you will, I remember how depressed, sad, and terrible I use to feel. I thank God daily for the strength he gave me to lose 120 lbs all on my own. I changed my life. I’ll never forget that either.